User Profile

I'm 27 years old, still trying to figure out exactly how I got to this point called adulthood, and fighting to turn back time every chance I get [I liked not having to worry about work, bills, and reputation all the time]. I'm married, no kids, and a houseful of animals [4 dogs, 2 ferrets]. My first child is due on March 14, 2010. I work 2 jobs now, as a correctional officer, and a real estate agent, and I'm trying to get enough business built up to do real estate only after the end of the next year 2 full time jobs are killer]. I've had leukemia for the last 5 years, so if I post about meds and doctor's appointments, or seem to be sick way too much , that's why. I've been a lot of places and through a lot of things, and there's not much I'd take back. Some of it may make me seem like a walking contradiction, but it's all made me who I am, and I like the way I've turned out.

Religion and spirituality is an important, albeit transitory, part of my life. I was raised nominally Christian, but my parents didn't go to church much, and I have followed and explored religions including many sects of Christianity [Methodist, Fundamentalist Baptist, Mormon, Anabaptist/Mennonite], Wicca, Asatru [Norse Paganism], and LaVeyan Satanism. While I found things in all of these that resonated with me at different times and still maintain respect for most followers of those traditions, none of them really resonated with my soul. I don't really have a name for my beliefs now, other than to say I am a follower of Yahweh [God], and a believer in His Son, Yashuah Ha Mashiach [Jesus Christ]. I try to follow the Bible as my guide, and not rely on traditions of man, but in practice I draw many things from both anabaptist Christianity and Judaism. I am not a Jew, but am mindful of the Hebrew roots of my faith, and am of personal belief that many Israelite from the "lost" tribes are being drawn back to these roots to worship and herald the coming again of the Messiah. In practical terms, I am a Christian, but I also keep the Sabbath, the Biblical Feast & Holy Days, and the Law, including restrictions on unclean food, immodesty, etc. I do not see this as legalism or bondage, but a reminder of our wonder Covenant and a way of life to protect my body & soul from harm.



I guess I'm an "old" skinhead, been around the scene for over 14 years [grew my hair out for several years, shaved it back down, may grow it it again - there's so much more to it than a hairstyle], and I'm still into the lifestyle and the music. I've ost some friends because I've been around and through a few WP crews, but never could stomach the drama and bullshit in that scene for long [and I got tired of the cracks because I like some reggae, lots of rocksteady, and a little bit of ska, and not much of this pseudo-metal crap that the WP labels have put out]. I'm not really actively involved in the political part of the scene anymore, because I burned out on it and most of it seemed so pointless and stupid. Many of the people I actually like are trads, but politics and past affiliations probably makes a lot of people iffy on having anything to do with me. That's cool, I just hit stuff by myself or with a friend or two that can have a good time and not be a jerk, and don't really worry about who I'm talking to or hanging out with. If I do consider someone a friend, that's all there is too it, and I'll stick by them regardless of any change in their politics, ideology, etc, and no matter how much bad is talked about them in real life or online. I may be a sucker at times, but I'd rather be loyal until I find out for myself that they've fucked me over than be one of those people that's your best friend one week and talking shit about you the next. If ya see me out at a show or something, I don't bite, I'm just a little shy in coming up to people because of all the crap [nothing like getting beat down at 22 because someone remembers who you ran with when you were 15!].

Anyway, that's the scene, so I know the next question is gonna be politics. For one, I don't see where the two necessarily have a thing to do with each other, other than screwing things up all the way around. As for mine, I'm a small "l" libertarian, I believe in freedom and I'm very anti-socialist. I'm somewhat of a Nationalist as well, because I think we should place America first, and protect American interests. As far as race, it is a reality and groups of people to tend to act in certain ways, but it's not really as important as I once thought it was. I've seen several people I know of various races stand up for this country and the principles it was founded on in the last couple years, while the white guys who gave it lip service did nothing, and often complained about people who were better human beings than them based solely on color or lifestyle. I'm not going to turn into some diversity crusader, and I still can't stand special preferences for minorities and all the white guilt pressed on this society, but there are much bigger problems facing our country than worrying about interracial dating or affirmative action.





I have no idea how to describe myself beyond all that, and I've changed a lot over the years, so a long bio's no good either. Your best bet is just to read if you find anything interesting, and ask if you have any questions, I'm a pretty open person. If you decide I'm boring or a horrible, mean, evil, etc. later and delete me from your friend's list, it's not going to hurt my feelings.